Awake ! - by Hénock Gugsa

Awake !

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Hénock Gugsa

           Awake ... yet again! 
  ummm ... ummm ... ummm .... aahh .... yawn (and a slight burping sound) ....

          Recognition of sensation of light and warmth is next.  But it takes a few seconds  before the sense of self-awareness takes over. Aha, so this is a living spirit inside a vessel known as a human body!

          Strange ... but why does this happen a lot lately ... this feeling of being an alien hopelessly stuck in a crude rent-a-body (i.e, a human body) ?!  The good thing today is that this "self" is not feeling any aches or pains.  [Correction: The big toe of the left foot is experiencing a little tremor ... or is it a mere twitch?!]

          But alas ... got to get out of bed and visit the bathroom ... the bladder needs to be relieved. The self is slowly transforming to the first person singular.  And so, I am now halfway awake, but I still want to crawl back into bed, curl myself up and simulate a return to whatever or wherever I came from.  So I am back in bed and I get into a quasi-zen meditative zone. 

          I attempt to analyze the self:  What am I?  Where am I?  Why and what am I doing here? Where is here?  Where was I before I was here?  Is here actually here and was it here before it was here?  If here was not here where was it?  If here is not here where is it?  Will here be here always or is here [here] only now? ....  Oh, yes ... now! When is now now?  If now is not now is it then then?  Will now be then tomorrow?  And will tomorrow be now?  So, is now always now?! 

          And so it goes ad-infinitum.  But my head has cleared up and I am now able to open my eyes wide and face the day. 

          Now seems permanent, and the spirit's eye senses that it (the self) will always be around somewhere, anywhere and everywhere! 
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© Hénock Gugsa